Monday, November 9, 2009 11:58 PM
rotten apples.
Just looking back these past few months of getting close to someone in particular. Sometimes, when you look back at a particular time where you thought you were good, you find yourself actually being stupid. For example, A was angry with B for laughing at everything she do and stomped away angrily then a few months or years past A looks back and actually laugh and thinks that what she did was really stupid.
So now, take it in my shoes. I looked back, and what do I see. I don't really know exactly. Am I stupid? I think maybe. But I think at a certain point of time we never expected it to be that way, maybe not you but at least I didn't expect it to turn out like so twisted and wrong.
I'm not sad (maybe I am), but I am definitely not angry with anybody. I just feel very sorry for the way I have to end this in this way without letting you to say anything. Maybe you would think that what did you do wrong? I hope in some point of time you'll realize, and I do also hope that this wouldn't just be ending up like some rotten apples on the road side.
I was watching sex and the city today on HBO. And it was the quite starting season - Season One's ending and Season Two's head. And there was an episode I couldn't remember season one episode 12 or season two episode 1. Carrie was dumping Big for his lack of commitment. She was actually going to a holiday place with Big, but because the day (or the week before) Big couldn't introduce her to his mother as his girlfriend. She just feel very disappointed. Well, so she wanted him to tell her that he was his only one or somehow making a commitment to her. But he just couldn't. So she couldn't take it.
I cannot take it anymore. I really can't. I can't be just friends with somebody whom I do almost everything with. I can't take it to listen to somebody that tells his mum that he is going out with his friend although it's very clear that we are more than that. I know we have already talk through about this issue before. But at some point, I have to make it clear. You don't need to tell the whole world that you like me, but I just want to know that you do.
And at last all the pictures have been burned,
all the past is just some lesson that we learned.
-Don't forget, Demi Lovato.
