Monday, April 25, 2011 5:29 PM
Letter to Myself.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010 12:42 AM
HORRIBLE.
TODAY IS LIKE THE MOST HORRIBLE DAY EVER.
Okay, maybe it was yesterday (Considering that it has past twelve)
However, it's still at its worst.
I just hate today.
Like seriously.
Because:
a) SOMEONE LOCKED THEIR BLOG. (Oh c'mon I just posted something about you and E on twitter and this is it?)
b) I'm in a damn suckish mood.
But today was kinda awesome cause:
a) I managed to finish my MCQ Set A and half of MCQ Set B whilst watching HSM and Camp Rock 2
b) Nick Jonas's Introducing Me made me smile/laugh.
c) I watched tons of HIMYM.
*clap hands*
ALRIGHT. And I posted a hate post on wordpress.
I'm really tired of all this, I don't know why I can't be braver and just end the whole thing once and for all. And I'm tired of instigating all this, why can't you have balls and END the whole thing? Because you know we are both tired of all this. YOU ARE TIRED TOO.
Mb. Ccb. Blogger is different from wordpress. Because I can swear like nobody's business.
BYE.
Monday, September 6, 2010 10:10 PM
Chasing cars, Chasing pavements.
You said you were tired of chasing me again and again. What about me? I do feel tired of waiting sometimes, I don't complain. I'm tired of being lower than others in priority. You say trust is gone for you. Well, I don't know. REALLY, I don't know.
ALL I should have seen in the first place is. He is chasing me, I'm chasing - and - is chasing her, she's chasing some sheezh. AND WHY THE SHEEZH, I cannot turn around and see the truth? Well, nevermind about that. Humpty Dumpty already fell down the wall, so I might as well don't care.
Friday, August 20, 2010 7:40 PM
Truth?
HI. Back from the dead, and back to blogger. I guess there's just heck loads of stuff I wanna say but just now rather run away from it. And just hide it here, just for now. Probably forever. But just writing here. Well, I guess no one is reading this. So just gonna tell to my blogger buddy. Hahaha. HELLO DEAR BLOGGER DIARY. Thanks for being here.
"I hate how men and women think differently. Now for each question I ask, you have a perfectly sweet answer for me. Yet I'm constantly thinking you've came prepared, to save your own ass. As long as the answer is sweet, swoons me over, you're safe.. Even though they are all lies. But I'm not the kind of girl who will take in the sweetness. I'll actually scrap the icing, nice little fruits and chocolates away, and see whats really beneath it. And I really wish that beneath all the nice exterior, the inside of it is just as good, and pure, and true."
That following chunk is from Priscilla's blog. Yeah, I kind of agree to it. HMMM. Nothing much else to say. Just interfere. Heh. HAHAHA. Grass is always greener on the other side.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010 9:02 PM
LONG LOST.
Hi Long Lost Blogger/Diary. Haha. I know I haven't been posting on you for quite sometime. I haven't forgotten about you, don't worry. I think about you almost everyday as I am using wordpress. Heh, okay enough the joke.
I just needed to type it down, type it down and cross my finger hope the feeling will be gone. I shall not think that the grass is greener. I shall not think the lyrics of 'Thinking of you' anymore. I'm just gonna type it out. Swallow the taste of bile on my tongue and get on with my life. Yeap, that's what I'm gonna do.
So the truth is I have been thinking about all this weird crushes and stuff that I had. Really long time ago. Those that draw back since like P3 like LWY. Haha. I doubt anyone can remember about it, probably not even YC. Haha. I guess it's some sort of influence. Some sort of lonesome that made me think about this and all that. Well, it's not like I'm getting tired of him or anything. It's just that I just thought about them.
Mentality cheating. This word keep on cycling around my head. No, it's not. It's not. Not even a chance, not even a way. But it did made me think, if they were like him I guess I will end up like who I am now, typing about some silliest crushes that popped in my mind these few days. They don't matter. Yes, they don't. I shan't think about those absurd thoughts.
Cookiemonster, Short legs, jamwaffles, GZX, WPE, LWY, WJH, KTY, you all shall never ever ever ever ever - till infinity ever - enter my mind or dreams again. EVER. Okay. MIND STOP IT STOP THINKING.
Tooodles. It's much a struggles. And my battery is 20% heh. GREAT JOB. Toodles.
Saturday, March 13, 2010 10:11 PM
Friday, March 5, 2010 4:03 PM
I'm like really bored. But don't wanna post on wordpress so yeah...
If you're a guy - post this as my kind of girl.
if you're a girl - post it as my kind of boy.
1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Hahahahaha. Doesn't have to. But beauty is in the eye of the beholder right?
2. Smart?
Don't mind. Just don't act smart yeah.
3. Preferred age?
HAHAHAHAHA. Can I don't answer this. Or else some people will tsk tsk me.
4. Preferred height?
HAHAHAHA. Emm I actually prefer taller yeah.
5. How about sense of humor?
Know how to laugh at my jokes can already.
6. How about piercings?
NO THANK YOU.
7. Accepts you for who you are?
Obviously yes.
8. Pink hair?
Hahaha. No. But please at least own a pink shirt in the wardrobe.
9. Mushy or no?.
Hahaha. I don't mind. Just don't too mushy eh.
10. Thin or fat?
Hahaha. Medium sized. Too thin is like bamboo, too fat is like ewww.
11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
My own race.
12. Long hair or short hair?
Short. Like BOTAK. No lah. Short would be fine.
13. Plastic or metal?
Not that irritating plastic or hardcore metal.
14. Smells good?
HAHAHA. *nod head*
15. Smoker?
Tyvm. NO!
16. Drinker?
Eh, a little bit?
17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
Hahaha. I think so.
18. Muscular?
Might not be. But I don't mind.
19. Plays piano?
*NOD HEADS VIGOROUSLY* Or guitar would be nice!
20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
Hahaha. Has said above.
21. Plays violin?
Ehh. Might not be. But can is gooooood.
22. Sings very good?
Hahahaha. Yeah. I think.
23. Vain?
Don't snatch my mirror can already.
24. With glasses?
Hahaha. Don't mind!
25. With braces?
Hahahaha. Don't mind either.
26. Shy type?
Ehh. Nope.
27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Little rebel?
28. Active or passive?
Can I have both?
29. Tight or bomb?
LOL. Neither.
30. Singer or dancer?
BOTH?
31. stunner?
Hahaha. No thankyou.
32. Hiphop?
Ehh. Nope?
33. Earrings?
HAHAHA. Nope!
34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-until-you-drop?
Ehh. Don't like one hour change one can already.
35. Dimples?
Hahaha. Nice.
36. Bookworm?
GOOD.
37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
*nod head*
38. Playful?
Hahahaha. Yeah.
39. Flirt?
NOPEY.
40. Poem writer?
Eh. Might not be.
41. serious?
Sometimes eh.
42. Campus crush?
NO!
43. Painter?
Hahaha. I don't mind.
44. Religious?
Yeah.
45. Someone who likes to tease people?
Ehh. Don't like tease until super serious can already.
46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
Ehh. Neither actually, but please know how to use a computer.
47. Speaks 20 languages?
HAHAHA. Edward Cullen baby (:
48. Loyal or faithful?
Both.
49. good kisser?
Hahaha.
50. loves children?
OBVIOUSLY YES.
Thursday, January 28, 2010 8:18 AM
Secrets.
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
-Secrets, OneRepublic.
Monday, January 11, 2010 8:47 PM
my regret.
Something on my chest
I got something to say
Girl, Listen
It’s too late now, still I’ve got something to say…
Girl I’m sorry that I treated you that way
Time has gone now, and the moment has passed…
When I had the chance to try and make us last
All alone now, and it’s no one’s fault by mine…
Couldn’t see the truth, I had those blinded eyes
You have moved on, still I don’t give a damn…
Gotta get this off my chest while I can
(How… I… need… you… more…and more… will… you
Come…back… to…me… please?)
Every single hour,
Of every single day, I
Miss you more and more,
Don’t know what to say, I
Know I closed the door,
You’re gone and on your way
But now, I need you, I need you…
Wanna take it back to the day when we first met,
If I could, I’d start all over again…
Our love is My Regret
Wanna take it back to the place when we first met,
If I could, I’d start all over again…
Our love is My Regret
Should have known then, what I know now…
Dying every second that you’re not around
Should have been there, when you needed me…
Now I’m by myself, on my bended knees
Should have loved you, while I had the chance to…
Couldn’t realize that you were the truth
Should have shown you, what you meant to me…
Baby now I see, that you were my queen
(How… I… need… you… more…and more… will… you
Come…back… to…me… please?)
Every single hour,
Of every single day, I
Miss you more and more,
Don’t know what to say, I
Know I closed the door,
Sent you on your way
And now you’re gone…
Wanna take it back to the place when we first met,
If I could, I’d start all over again…
Our love is My Regret
Wanna take it back to the place when we first met,
If I could, I’d start all over again…
Our love is My Regret
Wanna take it back to the place when we first met,
If I could, I’d start all over again…
Our love is My Regret
Wanna take it back to the day when we first met,
If I could, I’d start all over again…
Our love is My Regret
Sunday, November 29, 2009 11:30 PM
obsessive obsession.
Boo! Gahahaha. I am so super bored. I'm telling you - BORED LIKE B.O.R.E.D I'm so bored that I keep on doing Social Interview although the questions is kinda irritating me.
Haha. Recently have been thinking about something a lot. And meaning a lot is that it almost run in my mind every second. It's getting quite an obsessive obsession. Argh argh. I want to stop stop stop stop doing that. But I can't. And it feels wrong. Because you have someone that you love and the someone loves you too. And you are thinking about something else. OHDEAR! Obsessive obsession is making me liking rock song like Avenge Sevenfold. OHDEAR!Nevermind. Shall stop crapping. Bye~ Hope I get over it soon :(
Saturday, November 28, 2009 4:38 PM
“Every girl needs a man. You know, the kind that’ll treat you right. The kind that has enough respect for you & is willing to change, just to be with you. The kind that searches for you with all his heart & that can be trusted in a room full of beautiful girls. Every girl needs a man who won’t cheat on her because he knows she’s got all that he wants & needs already. He won’t mind calling you early in the morning just to say good morning or late at night to say good night; maybe even sing you a good morning song & tell you a bedtime story or talk to you until you fall asleep. This guy will be the kind that’ll do anything for you, even if it’s to just go to the store & buy you your favorite kind of candy. He would defend & fight for you & wouldn’t bail on you for his friends when you need him most. The kind that won’t leave you lonely & wondering; the one that calls you surprisingly, even if he’s out with his friend, to just tell you that he loves & misses you a lot. The kind that isn’t afraid to smile to his friends every time you’re around & tell them, “She’s the one”. The kind that appreciates you for the things you do for him, even if they’re little. The ones that actually thank you for the little love notes you leave him, waits for you when you’re falling behind, & opens doors for you. Every girl needs a man who will take you out on dates once in awhile & buys you flowers just because it’s a Wednesday. The kind of guy that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him. He would remind you that he loves you & that he’s happy to be with you, just in case you forget. The kind that just doesn’t want kisses & hugs, but to actually be loved & to love. You deserve a guy that will call you beautiful instead of hot, who kisses your forehead when you’re down, tells you to be strong & to not cry, & when you do cry, he’d cry with you when times are hard. The kind that will go through thick & thin with & for you. The kind that just loves you for who you are & not for who you aren’t and loves you because you’re his favorite girl in the whole wide world.”
— (via poeticheartache)
I'm tired of smiling at you when you are not looking. I'm tired of trying to make it work. I'm tired of trying to catch your glances. I'm tired of being upset because of you. I'm tired of trying to claim you as mine.
Friday, November 20, 2009 9:27 PM
I want I want!
I want this Bootie Wedges (Brown)! Super nice cans!
But it is super freaking expensive $55 ley!
This one also can. But it would be alot nice if it is leather.
Okay, see this place -> Flyingcars
Is all the things I want!
The leather lace-up bootie wedges reminds me of Ice Skating....
I want go Ice skating someday :D
Saturday, November 14, 2009 9:56 PM
You'll be in my heart
我们从不开口那个言语
那一句我爱你
永远像少了勇气
别人都说
我和你之间的关系
没有人相信只有关心
我们从不正视那个问题
那一些是非题
总让人伤透脑筋
---
Thank you for today,
Thank you for what you did at the carpark.
Thank you for being the shoulder for me to cry on.
Thank you for protecting me.
Thank you.
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Today was a fun and enriching day.
Went to library with mutton :D
And READ A ZILLION BOOKS ON HISTORY.
Super cool lah.
But all the books is reference *sulk sulk*
So cannot borrow out.
Next time go there read again.
Talked to mutton super much today.
After that ate at some western foodie place at AIA building
HAHA.
Watched the last action hero. SUPER LOL.
After that go back home.
Super long break than can see mutton, like on the 25th.
*sulk sulk*
But at least not like field camp like that, can use hp.
:DDDD
Okay, goodbye. Ending here.
Friday, November 13, 2009 10:33 PM
Happy.
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throw me off the edge?
My feet run of the ground?
I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound.
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
'Cause I just trying to be happy, yea
Just wanna be happy, yea.
-Happy, Leona Lewis.
VH1 Divas. Rock Arse.
Except for Miley - Constipated Cow (MUAHAHA)
Serious, no offence fans. She just sing too hard. And her voice just go. WOAH WOAH.
Ohwell, toodles. NOTHING MORE TO ADD.
10:53 AM
revive.
幾千のdestinies
運命なんて変えてみせる
この両手で今僕に何ができるかな
動き出すfantasies
確かなものはここにある
信じることそれだけは誰にも負けない
reach out from inside
- Changin' Stephanie.
Haha, I'm gonna revive my blogger.
Well, maybe it's not pretty much dead but just nobody reading it.
Was bloghopping around this morning and saw Ho Ling's blog.
Then I saw this post talking about MJ and the This Is It.
What she say is so totally what I feel lah.
There is just like a sudden bunch of people who popped out to be his fan.
C'mon, don't be so hypocrite.
You only like MJ because a lot people are doing so.
Where were you when MJ was alive.
Complaining about his plastic surgery?
LOL.
Monday, November 9, 2009 11:58 PM
rotten apples.
Just looking back these past few months of getting close to someone in particular. Sometimes, when you look back at a particular time where you thought you were good, you find yourself actually being stupid. For example, A was angry with B for laughing at everything she do and stomped away angrily then a few months or years past A looks back and actually laugh and thinks that what she did was really stupid.
So now, take it in my shoes. I looked back, and what do I see. I don't really know exactly. Am I stupid? I think maybe. But I think at a certain point of time we never expected it to be that way, maybe not you but at least I didn't expect it to turn out like so twisted and wrong.
I'm not sad (maybe I am), but I am definitely not angry with anybody. I just feel very sorry for the way I have to end this in this way without letting you to say anything. Maybe you would think that what did you do wrong? I hope in some point of time you'll realize, and I do also hope that this wouldn't just be ending up like some rotten apples on the road side.
I was watching sex and the city today on HBO. And it was the quite starting season - Season One's ending and Season Two's head. And there was an episode I couldn't remember season one episode 12 or season two episode 1. Carrie was dumping Big for his lack of commitment. She was actually going to a holiday place with Big, but because the day (or the week before) Big couldn't introduce her to his mother as his girlfriend. She just feel very disappointed. Well, so she wanted him to tell her that he was his only one or somehow making a commitment to her. But he just couldn't. So she couldn't take it.
I cannot take it anymore. I really can't. I can't be just friends with somebody whom I do almost everything with. I can't take it to listen to somebody that tells his mum that he is going out with his friend although it's very clear that we are more than that. I know we have already talk through about this issue before. But at some point, I have to make it clear. You don't need to tell the whole world that you like me, but I just want to know that you do.
And at last all the pictures have been burned,
all the past is just some lesson that we learned.
-Don't forget, Demi Lovato.
Monday, October 26, 2009 9:18 PM
Granted.
I don't know if you ever felt the same.
Maybe, just maybe. You think the same too.
Just like I do.
Haha, I don't know what I'm talking about you know?
Just want to say, all these days.
All these days without you by my side, without just an sms, an MRT stop away.
I realized that I really rely on you so much.
You are my reason to await what's more in life.
I don't think you remember it, but you know you caught my eye way long ago.
Haha, this blog can tell you so
(maybe not, well believe it or not I went to search *your name* in my posts. Ahaha. Don't try that, it's not fun. Maybe my previous blog)
Okay, so what I am trying to say that.
Remember all those days?
The day I saw you eat milo powder.
The day we went to LCS Missionary camp.
Those days at retreat.
The day you lift me off the ground and circle me in the library.
The day we do the penguin walk
The day you told me about all your past
The day I asked you.
All those days, do you remember them?
I don't think I would ever forget them.
I hope you don't too.
Iloveyou.
6:39 PM
Tell me why.
There's something wrong.
Something quite wrong.
Oh Andrew, tell me why you have been running in my mind these few days.
It feels wrong, cause mainly my mind has been occupied by someone else than mutton.
And even funnier thing is that, I cannot remember someone's face so clearly ever.
Is there like something wrong with me.
Dearest mutton, I hope you'll come back soon.
So you can occupy my mind again.
I shall not talk about Andrew anymore, or else everybody think I stepping two boats.
LOL.
Though, I heck care what other people think lah.
And look at plurk please for latest updates and stuff.
BYE BYE :D
Saturday, October 24, 2009 5:13 PM
I miss you♥
I suddenly miss you so so much.
Do you know that? Can you feel it too?
Today I had a bad dream, I think because of that so I miss you so much.
My hear won't let you go,
and I need you to know.
I miss you♥
♥ily.
Friday, October 23, 2009 10:23 AM
don't forget.
Since yesterday I wanted to post a whole lot of rantings at Wordpress,
and unfortunately the webstie flickered and then the whole post is like GONE! *puff*
So yeah, posting here. Apparantely someone don't want me to post.
LOL.
Yeap, Kehjun is so super funny.
HIS EYES IS SO SMALL THAT WHEN HE SMIRK YOU CAN'T SEE HIS EYES.
Lol lol lol :D
Was sms-ing Jia Zi during class about subject combination.
Damn qia siah, later need choose already.
Still thinking whether want to choose triple science.
Not I scared I cannot tio, but scared I tio then cannot handle.
Like Higher Chinese like that, later I see the teacher buay song then don't want do homework.
Lol.
Serious lah, I tell you if I ever want to drop higher chinese is because the biggest reason.
Biggest reason: THE TEACHER IS SUPER RETARDED.
I can complain the teacher for one whole day okay.
Yesterday I post that post 98% scolding my chinese teacher.
She is retarded till the earth can stop turning already.
Okay, shall stop complaining since next year hopefully won't see her.
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I want to see MUTTON!
But he this week confined.
So actually should be quite sad right, but because of something - I am quite happy.
:DDDD
Today smell the deoderant until so high!! (Got someone spray his type of deoderant until the corridor smell like MUTTON:D)
Okay, shall stop crapping here.
Tada~ Byebye ♥
So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget
We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us
